I am not one to “hate.” I don’t. But there are a few people in my life, who have really made a difference. Not for the better — although that’s disputable because as we know, “what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger”…right. I don’t hate because for the most part, I’ve had to move on and forgive them, give them the benefit of the doubt…I know I have done some stupid things in my life I wish I could apologize for…
If I could confront them about the horrible things they’ve done to me…would I?
Mostly I would like to publicly explain the affect they had on me or excuse my actions because of them. But would that change what’s happened? I am being so vague here to protect those who have hurt me. Honestly I can only think of 2-3 who I would want to corner in a small room and say hey, what the heck were you thinking and can you apologize?
I look back on some years of my life with regret and sadness. But if you met me, you’d never know. There are occasions I wish I could control, go back in time and change how I reacted — how I let people make fun of me to my face, date people I let slip by, tell them how much I cared, not date people…
We live and we learn, as my mom would say. But some people are unforgivable. Do they know?
As a human, I’ve grown to block out these events. And build upon my experiences. I think people can be incredibly loving, resilient and powerful. But what about when they let us down?
And to those who have hurt me, thank you?